Waiting.

The last few weeks have been a whirlwind. I was feeling so good between 5-6 weeks and then late last week and this week I have been feeling more and more sick. Nothing sounds go to me, but if I don't eat, the nausea gets worse.

I think I've also been pretty nervous about our ultrasound tomorrow. I just keep thinking about everything that can go wrong, not because I'm a negative person, but because I've had those moments when I thought everything was perfect and then totally had the carpet pulled out from underneath my feet and believe me, that is so so hard.

I feel like I'm maybe trying to prepare myself, just in case. In General Conference, Elder Nelson talked about having joy in every circumstance and I feel like lately that has been my challenge. It's really hard for me to feel as excited or happy as I want to because I'm so scared. And I know how it feels to have dreams dashed in an instant. That's such a sad way to live. I'm trying hard to be positive and not worry about things, stress probably doesn't make anything better.

On top of feeling kind of anxious, I realized last night that I hadn't received a confirmation email about my appointment so I called the office this morning and they had cancelled my appointment and didn't tell me. My little pregnant heart almost couldn't take it. They tried to get me to move the appointment to next week, but there was no way I could wait over the weekend. Luckily, a doctor was willing to give me a little time so we still get to go tomorrow, but that was kind of stressful.

We just keep praying for good news tomorrow! :)